Taking A Breather

So, as you guys know, I'm taking a break from Facebook and Tumblr.
I maybe go on to check whether there's important mail but other than that, Im off.
I was down for no friggin reason today,
And all I feel like doing is curl up into a ball and die somewhere.
I'm currently doing things for ME, and no one else.
But I still will be there if you need me.

xx
Tzar

It's alright :)

I was never angry at you. Not one bit.
And I understand why you wrote that. It just hurts, ya know?
The feeling when someone you care about just suddenly wrote something like that to you.
Made me think whether I was all that.
And at some point, I started believing it.
At some point, I realise you were right.
And I started to go rebellious on not answering people's phone call.
And not answering text messages. Because I was thinking of...

not gonna tell u what I was thinking about. :P
I still love you and seriously, nothing for you to be sorry about.
I'll just change. If that what makes you happy. :)
I love you.

all my fault.

yes. I am all that. Feeling quite happy about it. My eyes hurt from laughing n gt headache. Too bad im sick. Haha. :)

The only thing constant in life is CHANGE.

Warning to people: I'm changing myself.
Im learning lessons from mistakes I've made and I'm changing myself.
I don't want to make the same mistakes.

My goal this year is to become a great 保姆 and a 组长。
And I want to become independent.
I don't want to count on anyone to be my crying shoulder.
I want to stand up on my own and handle the pain in my life on my own.
Cuz if I have someone to lean on, I always get hurt.
And I did. Many times.
Not doing the same mistakes again.
So, new me right here. I'm building a wall. I'm not letting anyone in.
I'm sick of getting hurt and always suffering.

I don't care if I don't have boyfriend ever.
And you know what?
He can kiss his own ass.
Good day ^^

First Day

Today was the first day of school.
It was alright.
It felt different from last year even though we sit together, seriously.
It's like... I don't know.
So, I came to school in the morning and hugged everyone that I missed. LOL.
Then, I went up to class, thinking that it's early and he doesn't come that early.
*poof* He's there.
So, I walked in with a cool walk. and just ignore him.
I could see Chum's bag so I sat beside her and the stalking began... until I had to go back downstairs to A class.
I gave LipYi an excuse that I had to go back to class go drink water. ><
So, I went back and drank water... while stalking.
He looked... :) with his hair, I kinda like it. :P
So, blah blah blah, assembly time.
I was like bossing people around and I liked it. xD

So, after all Sr1 sat down, I went over Science stream de class go ask them keep quiet. <---- an excuse too.
And when the Jr1 came into d hall, a lot of em fell. I was like,"OMG. BE CAREFUL!!"
One after another, they fell. LMAO.

Blah blah blah. Recess time.
I went back to class to wait for my fren who's giving me books.
While waiting, Becca n Chum came back wif my food.
So, we ate and talked. After that, still talking about Paris, Tumblr and roller coasters when suddenly....
I could see him looking at me and smiled a bit.
I was like, "WTF!?"
and he turned back, talked to Mr Poong and Mr Poong looked at me.
I hid under the table after that.

before Chum n Becca went down to get food, they told me,
when I was strutting down in the hall, he turned his whole body towards me.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
here I am,
confused as hell and nobody's explaining anything to me.
YAY.
So,
Imma stay suffered. :DD

~SelGoAnon

Being an Anon.

Right now, I have a new hobby,
that is being an anon.
Im a Selena Gomez anon.
Nothing else to do and I obviously love to help people. :)
selgoanon.tumblr.com
Go there and message me if you want.
Just don't blow my secret, k?
Im there as Selena. :))

Anyways, I met a lot of nice people there.
Even this girl from England.
I don't know her name but she is also a SG anon.
We've been calling each other niggas. xD
That proves that we're kinda close. LOL.

So, I told her about da fruit.
I told her everything and she ended up saying I should marry him.
I was like, "seriously?"
she said yes.
And then today, I told her about an incident just now.
They all BBQ at PuiSan's house mar.
Then SzeMun go chat with me, suddenly saying he wanted to speak to me.
I freaked out for awhile. :P
Then, he said hi and asked me why I wasnt there.
I answered him and he went away somehow.
SO, I called him wuliao then he scolded me back, "IM WULIAO!?"
then went singing Lee Hom's songs, according to SM anyways.
So, I wrote on his wall, "wuliao lar u, dude."
DUDE!? DUDE!? im crazy.
THE END.

so the anon told me that he obviously was thinking about me and cares about me.
I was like, "Huh? Im not sure about that."
"Most prob he is."
"Ok. I don't want to think about it now."

Ok, I'll admit, I didn't handle the feeling, just burying it, so I'm officially still in love with him. Haha. Im bad. :P I wonder how Im gonna act around him.
I miss him. LOL.

Sooooooo.......... >< it's almost 1am now, listening to SG's songs. I love her now. ><
A song that describes my situation.
omg. Can I go to sleep now? Don't invade my mind lar, fruit.

~SelGoAnon

Fudge

我也不知道要怎么样现在。
我其实很生气你，还在。
不想跟你讲话。
我昨天那么样都是因为我关心你。
你知道我几担心吗？
过后，你就那样跟我讲话。
我就。。。算了。
我一整晚都在想着你。。。
我也不知道我什么事。
可能我变了。
我不知道。

~俐娜