Taking A Breather

So, as you guys know, I'm taking a break from Facebook and Tumblr.
I maybe go on to check whether there's important mail but other than that, Im off.
I was down for no friggin reason today,
And all I feel like doing is curl up into a ball and die somewhere.
I'm currently doing things for ME, and no one else.
But I still will be there if you need me.

xx
Tzar

It's alright :)

I was never angry at you. Not one bit.
And I understand why you wrote that. It just hurts, ya know?
The feeling when someone you care about just suddenly wrote something like that to you.
Made me think whether I was all that.
And at some point, I started believing it.
At some point, I realise you were right.
And I started to go rebellious on not answering people's phone call.
And not answering text messages. Because I was thinking of...

not gonna tell u what I was thinking about. :P
I still love you and seriously, nothing for you to be sorry about.
I'll just change. If that what makes you happy. :)
I love you.

all my fault.

yes. I am all that. Feeling quite happy about it. My eyes hurt from laughing n gt headache. Too bad im sick. Haha. :)

The only thing constant in life is CHANGE.

Warning to people: I'm changing myself.
Im learning lessons from mistakes I've made and I'm changing myself.
I don't want to make the same mistakes.

My goal this year is to become a great 保姆 and a 组长。
And I want to become independent.
I don't want to count on anyone to be my crying shoulder.
I want to stand up on my own and handle the pain in my life on my own.
Cuz if I have someone to lean on, I always get hurt.
And I did. Many times.
Not doing the same mistakes again.
So, new me right here. I'm building a wall. I'm not letting anyone in.
I'm sick of getting hurt and always suffering.

I don't care if I don't have boyfriend ever.
And you know what?
He can kiss his own ass.
Good day ^^

First Day

Today was the first day of school.
It was alright.
It felt different from last year even though we sit together, seriously.
It's like... I don't know.
So, I came to school in the morning and hugged everyone that I missed. LOL.
Then, I went up to class, thinking that it's early and he doesn't come that early.
*poof* He's there.
So, I walked in with a cool walk. and just ignore him.
I could see Chum's bag so I sat beside her and the stalking began... until I had to go back downstairs to A class.
I gave LipYi an excuse that I had to go back to class go drink water. ><
So, I went back and drank water... while stalking.
He looked... :) with his hair, I kinda like it. :P
So, blah blah blah, assembly time.
I was like bossing people around and I liked it. xD

So, after all Sr1 sat down, I went over Science stream de class go ask them keep quiet. <---- an excuse too.
And when the Jr1 came into d hall, a lot of em fell. I was like,"OMG. BE CAREFUL!!"
One after another, they fell. LMAO.

Blah blah blah. Recess time.
I went back to class to wait for my fren who's giving me books.
While waiting, Becca n Chum came back wif my food.
So, we ate and talked. After that, still talking about Paris, Tumblr and roller coasters when suddenly....
I could see him looking at me and smiled a bit.
I was like, "WTF!?"
and he turned back, talked to Mr Poong and Mr Poong looked at me.
I hid under the table after that.

before Chum n Becca went down to get food, they told me,
when I was strutting down in the hall, he turned his whole body towards me.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
here I am,
confused as hell and nobody's explaining anything to me.
YAY.
So,
Imma stay suffered. :DD

~SelGoAnon