:: So Sick ::

Lost hopes. Lost memories.

When I finally have the chance to talk to Justin, or even just being followed by him.

He's going away or might even delete his tumblr.

And did you really think that I just love him like a Belieber?

Anything you say about him, I care.

I have a special feeling with him. I know.

And you're saying that it's not real?

Never thought you would say that.

I just thought you would be different.

Talking to him is all I wanna do.

And I miss him.

He gave me hope, to dream.

And all you do is bring it all down.

GREAT.

And you guys.

I'm effin serious.

All that stuff......

I was so scared that if I told u the truth,

you would be hurt.

But I did.

and?

still did it.

Still thinking you guys would really care about me.

I guess I was wrong.

Bye.

:: Everything ::

I was pissed off yesterday at tomato.

He totally ignored me.

And I was like, "EVEN IF U DUN LIKE ME, DUN IGNORE ME PLEASE!!"

So I was angry.

This morning also I was sad cuz I just want him to talk to me.

Then, I was angry again.

His voice, his face annoys the hell out of me.

I swore to ignore him.

I swore.

Then, I saw him at the monorail while I reach the door he was at.

WALAO.

Then Joey asked me to turn around and not face him.

but I had to cuz people couldn't go in.

So, i looked down and I was just at his back!!!

He saw me and smiled and said hi.

My face lit up and replied him.

I don't know What to do.

We get off the same station and went to the lrt.

The whole time while talking to Joey, I was looking for him.

I couldn't be angry.......

I'm messed up...

Help....

Tomato thingy is giving me a heart attack.

Today, I was trying real hard to communicate with him.

It ended with him ignoring me when I asked him something.

That time, I was so hurt and I couldn't care about anything anymore.

I was like, "I'm not important. It's ok. Go layan Cat."

I swear I wanted to cry but no tears came.

And then somehow, I got hyper because he actually was talking about the 'girl' which is me and that means he still remembers.

And SZ is my spy on their group.

But I specifically told him not to say or ask anything so.....

I don't know what to do now.

Tomorrow?

Let's see what happens.

Justin, Justin, Justin...

I barely have time to go online for him anymore.

Just now, he posted,

I KNOW ONE DAY YOU’LL NO LONGER BE THERE FOR ME. I KNOW YOU’LL HAVE TO FACE YOUR OWN LIFE… U WILL BECOME MOTHER TO YOUR CHILD AND A WIFE TO YOUR HUSBAND. AND I WANT TO THANK U FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE.I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU ALL, MY BELIEBERS.

I was so sad.

I mean a lot of 'beliebers' are starting to turn their back against him and they are all taking us with them. Justin is sad. and upset.

hey, you there. i will never forget you. If i do, then I’m ungrateful. I cannot forget the person who made me who I am today and made me discover what I wanna be and what I can do. Even if i have a husband and children, I would tell them that I wouldn’t be here without you. You’re the greatest thing that happen in my life currently.

You’re the only guy in the world that makes me happy. I know there’s ‘beliebers’ who turn their back against you. I understand. It makes you feel lost for awhile. My life was upside down until you came. No words can describe my feelings for you. No tears can measure how much I love and care for you. I would never forget you. Loving you is probably the best thing I ever did. And I still will. Forever, remember? We’ll go through this together, hand in hand, even though you’re thousand miles away. Seeing you like this breaks my heart and I wish I could give you a big long hug. That’s all I wanna do right now. I love you, Justin Drew Mallette Bieber.

I wrote that to him. Both of it. How I wish I know him. He should have a big hug and not a belieber hug but a friend hug. I love him so much and I can't imagine life without him.

~azunyannyui

Just A Dream

Hello.
Today, I came back from my hometown and took the LRT home.
I saw this high school couple and I was listening to 'Never Let You Go' in my ipod.
Gosh. I was like wishing a guy would specially sing this to me.
I'm in need of a boyfriend.
Help me.
Ash is an ok singer, I'm better. :P
But I think he's sweet and I want to get to know him better.
Like chum said, "Once he knows you, he'll dump his gf."
Haha.. as if.
He's from Brunei and a boybelieber.
Cute too....
T_T
Facing lots of problems lately. :P