:: See You Again ::

Today, I woke up at 5am, thinking of him. And I couldn't fall asleep anymore. So, I went online. Nothing to do and I was kinda lazy to go practice badminton later that day.

So, I ate nasi lemak and all and prepare to go school.

In the LRT, chatted with Chum abt him on facebook and,

I wrote 'I miss him' repeatedly'.

She threatened to print screen that and tag him. ==

Gosh, I arrived early and went to mamak stall with Dad.

Waited in the school for Rach.

She arrived and JoeWen arrived.

Rach called the boys and at first we waited in the car,

but then I saw him coming out of the gate.

My heart nearly jumped out of my body.

He was asking whether he can go.

Lol. He was so cute.

I looked at Rach while he told her that the boys were at the pingpong room.

He walked away to his car.

And if it wasn't for JoeWen, I would have screamed there.

blah blah blah....

At night, I went to dinner with mom outside.

And I told her that I haven't told her about anything personal abt me anymore.

SO, I told her that I like one of my classmate,

she smiled and went quiet.

While I was smiling like crazy and dreaming.

I guess I can't get over him at all.

I wish I have the time to see him tomorrow :]

He's gonna be in da pingpong room at the 2nd part,

and Im playing bball in the 1st.

Awww.... That time, I was like,

"I want to see him play!!"

>.<

~ A Girl In Love ~

:: Purple Colour Girl ::

The thing he wrote on facebook, I get what chum meant.

It's either:

1) He saw me so pretty and he no need eat dy

or

2) He saw me so ugly, he no appetite to eat.

it turned out they were eating at Carl's Junior. WHAT!? That place so expensive and I thought they were not going there? theory: He went there to stalk someone. (chum's theory)

Since morning I was bugged by this......................................................................

SOOOOOO?????? YES OR NO?

I dream of him again last night. We were listening to a talk in a really nice hall with seats and all. I sat at the end of a row. SiKai came with him, asking him to sit beside me. He hesitated and looked at me and I was so hurt that I stormed off and chum went to chase after me. END.

:: On Rainy Days, Part 2 ::

We shopped for things we'll be wearing in da trip, which is necklaces, sort of. :D its so nice!! I was very tired and all so we went back to the group which was at the bowling alley. I sat there, watching them play. At one point, he turned around from his game and looked at me like he wanted to do sth. I was hugging my bag tightly, wishing he would. He didn't. I decided to leave with chum and becca without saying goodbye. Disappointed.

Today, I went to school to practice. I ended up didn't do much. I saw him in da morning, touching my phone, acting busy. When I finished playing volleyball with Verina, she asked me to go to ping pong room. I didn't want to go in so I sat on the stairs. Verina called me from inside of the room and looking at me. I wanted to go in so I did. He turned around (his back was facing the entrance) and looked at me. I smiled at him ( I thought, I must do it) and never in my mind, I thought that he would smile back. He did. And my heart skipped a beat. After awhile, in da ping pong, I started helping him count marks for the matches and I answered his question with serious voice. Lmao. I wanted to go back at 3 and I was surprised that almost everyone going back at 1. Chum told me, "He also going back at 3." I was like "Really?" In my heart, of course. I didn't want to leave just yet................................................................................................... But I did.

And I miss him so much already!!!!!!!! >.<

Somewhere in da middle, I had lunch with chum, hsin huey and carmen.

I begged hsin huey to go with muh puppy eyes. lol.

We talked abt tomato mostly, lol.

Because of me.

Ok, thats all.

~I LOVE HIM~

:: On Rainy Days, Part 1 ::

Yesterday was the last day of torture.

SO, we all went to mid valley.

On the way to mv, I saw the guys walking to mv.

In my heart, I was like "Awwww.... So pity..." XD

At first, we wanted to eat at Carl's Junior but Zi Ee went off at the last minute,

so we ate at Sushi King.

Then, we all headed to Red Box for karaoke.

I was like freaking out inside

and chum and becca fixing my hair and shirt. ==

I went in and was disappointed.

He wasn't there.

So, I was having fun with becca, singing and jumping,

then he came,

and I became very ladylike and stayed quiet and laid on chum's shoulder.

Chum and Becca were the ppl who's xcited.

I escaped to the toilet.

Then, ZiEe texted me so I went out to find him.

He was so strong that I couldnt get hold of him.

I went back inside and continued laying by Chum,

she said to me that he was looking at me.

It's was nervewrecking and everyone start singing sad love songs.

I beh tahan and we all went SHOPPING! :D

:: Chestnuts Roasting On A Open Fire ::

Can you blame me for thinking of him so so much?

I'm freakin shy to talk to him lar.

I should slap myself.

It's his birthday today,

and I didn't even say happy birthday facetoface to him somemore.

And I embarrassed myself in front of him.

==

Why am I like this?

So furious about what to do with my hair this friday....

T_T

It's a mess.

I'm a mess....

:: DA FRUIT ::

I'm so not in a studying mood.

I feel like partying and have fun,

and that includes flirting. LMAO.

I miss him so bad.

Can you blame someone who's in love?

This morning, he was online at the same time.

I swore I typed something in his chat box and I deleted it.

>.<

Not now. After exam.

I guess that's what we both were thinking.

Chum said it's bad.

How is it bad?

I have another chance, right?

Right?? >.<

I always wonder whether he would stare at his chat box and type sth just like me,

but deleted it, like me.

I'm so in love that even my tumblr doesn't look like it's dedicated to JB anymore.

~All love~

blerkkk....

Becca said she don't like hot guys.

For me, it's a lil weird.

I mean, who doesn't like hot guys?

I do but I feel like it's out of reach so I just stare and wish.

Even tomato is not that hot.

I mean, look at him...

What's inside that counts. :3

Okay, that day I totally overreacted.

I got totally NUTS yesterday when I was checking my FB at a restaurant at KLCC.

I posted sth on the wall of an event and he replied.

Js because of that, I went crazy.

In public.

I swear Mom thought I lost my mind.

She was freaked out.

Hahahahahahahaha....

ONE MORE DAY PEOPLE!!

I'll see him on Monday.........

|| And I totally wish I dream of him tonight ||

||| Fate brought us together but we decide whether we want to keep us together |||

(ps//: this was while I was taking pics for my profile picture.... I was bored and totally missing him that time. lol)

:: Under The Mistletoe ::

Couldn't wait for ShiZhe to download Mistletoe for me so I went to look myself.

He sounds like himself and I'm proud.

Proud to have him as an inspiration.

Mistletoe has been on repeat for the past an hour and a half.

Gonna be singing it at school and annoy the hell out of people.

Today, after school, I reached home,

I was totally hyper.

Missing him and stuff.

Thinking about him.

Even doodling his name on a piece of paper on the way home.

But, once I got online on facebook,

I saw lots of things that he liked:

1) carmen's new profile picture

2) elevator's status:

Don't be too confident when people say they like you.

The question is until when?

Just like seasons change, people change too/

3) elevator's status:

The hardest thing is to see someone you love, love someone else.

How am I supposed to react?

Happy?

Just a few hours ago, me and chum were just talking about him.

About how I should get him off my mind for awhile and I should kiss his cheek.

that really hurts...

My heart really near broken already but shud thank Justin for playing mistletoe.

That song keeping my heart in one piece.

But I'm scared after I turn it off, I'll cry.

Ms H said that he's not worth my love.

HOW?

I couldn't help but feel happy when I see him happy and smiling,

when he's studying,

when he's full of himself.

I just want someone, a guy to care for me a lot.

I'm not asking for perfection.

My requirements are not that many.

I'm not asking for the dream guy.

I'm asking for a person who's willing to love a girl with his heart,

without changing who he is.

~azunyann

Fudged Day

Can I complain?

May I have the right to say my unsatisfaction?

You, bitch, is an eyesore.

I don't really care you have problems.

I also have problems and I don't act like you.

Total unnecessary.

You want to get me, come.

I'm not your dog.

Bitches like you don't deserve my respect.

Respect is for people who is willing to sacrifice their own satisfaction

for others.

I couldn't say no to Ms H.

She's like another me.

And you.

You're supposed to be her assistant and I'm the one who's helping her?

I don't mind but seriously, do your job.

Tomato,

I totally confused with what to do with you so I'm gonna put you aside for awhile.

Mom,

the itchy thing is not my fault.

SO,

why did you scold me for forcing you to come home early?

HOW IN THE HELL am I supposed to know that it was nothing?

It's still itching now and I'm gettin less sleep than usual.

YOU,

MY LIL COUSIN N ME AUNT.

you both are the same species.

Annoying.

Totally beh tahan dy, u know that?

FRIENDS,

I'm incredibly sensitive.

I thought u knew.

SO, if you start to hurt my feelings,

I will respond in a meaner way,

especially when I'm moody.

I let people walk all over me all the time.

Fine,

I don't care.

Whatever.

CONCLUSION:

I'M VERY MEAN WHEN I'M MOODY.

DON'T EVER TALK TO ME WHEN WE'RE BOTH MOODY AT THE SAME TIME.

WORLD WAR III

:: Tomatoes ::

A lot stuff has happened these few weeks.

PMR.

It was like shit, man.

I don't really know how I did and I don't want to.

The second last day of PMR, me, chum and becca came out early and sat at the 9th floor's stairs.

chum took our her phone and started to take pictures.

I mean,

really?

But I didn't care.

I'M FABULOUS.

PEOPLE WANT ME TO TAKE PICS WITH THEM.

lmao.

just kidding. haha.

On 5/10/11,

something miraculous happened.

In the canteen, he was like walking in and I was pretending not to care.

He came in, looked at me and sat at a table.

After that, he looked at me again.

TOTAL LOSS FOR WORDS.

after he left, i was technically looking for him so i walked from 8 floor with 2 aunties.

found him on 3rd floor.

according to chum, he asked kaixin,

why did I walk that way and not the direction that he was.

*le dead*

the next day, he even came to my class,

looked around and walked back to his class.

I mean who does that?

FOR FUN?

On 7/10/11,

Friday,

I was on skype with chum, telling her that i was stalking him on facebook.

Then, it turns out that she has his msn so she wanted to tell him.

I let her.

I mean,

what could go wrong?

My heart rate was like a roller coaster the whole time waiting for him to respond.

Finally, he told chum that everybody likes him so it's nothing. haha.

He also said that he wouldn't want to hurt me but dun wan pak tor.

AWWW.... :(

jkjk....

SO, i was on edge on monday.

He gelled his hair and seriously was looking for me.

Not to talk, just look.

According to Becca,

he thought I was with Becca when her and chum go toilet at C block so he turned around,

searching for sth in the pack.

(OHMYGOSH MOMENT)

That day, I didn't know yet.

So, when I go to toilet, I go C block one.

When Becca told me, I was hugging a pole outside of the school.

so, lately, I've been trying to communicate with him as much as possible,

but i will freak out.

Next week, he'll be sitting in front of me.

I dunno what to do.

I decide to confess to him when we're on the trip.

Hope, it doesn't fall apart.

<3

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