Being an Anon.

Right now, I have a new hobby,
that is being an anon.
Im a Selena Gomez anon.
Nothing else to do and I obviously love to help people. :)
selgoanon.tumblr.com
Go there and message me if you want.
Just don't blow my secret, k?
Im there as Selena. :))

Anyways, I met a lot of nice people there.
Even this girl from England.
I don't know her name but she is also a SG anon.
We've been calling each other niggas. xD
That proves that we're kinda close. LOL.

So, I told her about da fruit.
I told her everything and she ended up saying I should marry him.
I was like, "seriously?"
she said yes.
And then today, I told her about an incident just now.
They all BBQ at PuiSan's house mar.
Then SzeMun go chat with me, suddenly saying he wanted to speak to me.
I freaked out for awhile. :P
Then, he said hi and asked me why I wasnt there.
I answered him and he went away somehow.
SO, I called him wuliao then he scolded me back, "IM WULIAO!?"
then went singing Lee Hom's songs, according to SM anyways.
So, I wrote on his wall, "wuliao lar u, dude."
DUDE!? DUDE!? im crazy.
THE END.

so the anon told me that he obviously was thinking about me and cares about me.
I was like, "Huh? Im not sure about that."
"Most prob he is."
"Ok. I don't want to think about it now."

Ok, I'll admit, I didn't handle the feeling, just burying it, so I'm officially still in love with him. Haha. Im bad. :P I wonder how Im gonna act around him.
I miss him. LOL.

Sooooooo.......... >< it's almost 1am now, listening to SG's songs. I love her now. ><
A song that describes my situation.
omg. Can I go to sleep now? Don't invade my mind lar, fruit.

~SelGoAnon

Fudge

我也不知道要怎么样现在。
我其实很生气你，还在。
不想跟你讲话。
我昨天那么样都是因为我关心你。
你知道我几担心吗？
过后，你就那样跟我讲话。
我就。。。算了。
我一整晚都在想着你。。。
我也不知道我什么事。
可能我变了。
我不知道。

~俐娜

Is it too late?

I feel awesomely terrible today.
Going through my cycle the fourth time this two months.
So, it explained the mood I'm having.
And I sort of ran off and got angry with someone.
I didn't bother to think about it and I just don't want to hear anything about it.
I didn't want to text that person abt it.
I was being a bitch.
I'm sorry.
But my feelings are true.
I feel lonely and abandoned.
All the time.
I texted brother and zhiwen today. they both didn't reply.
I didn't bother texting others cuz they most prob won't reply either.
I feel so suckish.
And I'm sorry.
I saw what that person did to somewhere, and I realised that person really cares.
So sorry. I promised you and I'm breaking the promise this way.

AND THE EFFIN SCHOOL SYSTEM IS SUCKISH.
I WANT TO MURDER IT.
THE END.

hola holiday

I'm sitting here, making other people happy on tumblr.
I'm making a couple happy.
And I'm here :(
yay. what a christmas.

:: The One That Got Away ::

In another life,
I would be your girl.

Most probably. And I'm spending this Christmas Eve alone.
I never minded so much about tonight in my life.
I usually would go have a one person dance party.
But then, this year, it's especially lonely, even with my parents in the living room.
It somehow feels like there's something missing.
Maybe I'm retarded, I don't know.
I just feel so lonely.
And the Katy Perry song isn't helping either. :|

Tomorrow, I'm off to Melaka. Staying at A'Famosa.
And will be staying with my 12, soon to be 13 niece who will be texting her boyfriend every day. FUDGE.
Maybe that's what's missing.
I don't like this feeling at all.
Help?

omg.

Got 7A... I was like checking the student's uniform when teacher called me.
"I hope your slip is in here. Find your name."
A stack of 8A and 7A slips there. I checked 8A, no such luck. 7A, I panicked. WOW.
I DID IT!! My upsr only got 4A, okay? SO, I FRIGGIN IMPROVED!! :DD
And I beat my cousin who also having PMR this year. LOL.
A lot of ppl called me and it was kinda... ==
So, we all were forced to go AV2 to get our slips.
And I was interviewed cuz I'm Malay and got 7A.
omg.
Then, took picture with me and my mom. omg.
AND SHE KISSED ME. omg.
I HOPE NO ONE BUYS THE NEWSPAPER TMR. ><
I hugged Hsin Huey and Zi Ee after a long time of missing em but it just doesn't feel enough... ><
LOVE U GUYS!!!! SEE YAH!

:: Marry You ::

That's my fav shot of myself so far. I don't know why. But it's nice. :D

Tomorrow, PMR results. Im scared but listening to songs is making me feel better. :)
And I'm looking at memories nowadays. You would expect other ppl to throw away small papers that you pass in class but I keep it. WOW. you guys are hilarious. ==

I rarely think about him, nowadays. YAY! :>

Reading my blog posts. Yeah, he makes me happy but you guys make me even happy. :)
And I realised something. He was playing with me. Most probably. No other explanation. I mean, he does all that and he doesn't have feelings for me? obviously, just playing with my heart. YAY.

FUDGE U. :) I stalked him every day and looked at him dreamily every day, and this is what he gives back? Well, fudge u, beb. :>
I believe I was a great crush. LOL. serious.
Even tho I would stick to u, like glue. I would take care of you and blah blah blah. xP





BYE.

Count On You~

AHAH! xD
Been moping at home all day. Thinking about my convo with CARMEN yesterday, until 1.30 am wor... xDD
It's true what I said. And I totally won the argument. LOL.
I told her, "Your argument is invalid." LOL.
And she replied nothing else.
My result for JUEC. WOW.
I expected to fail Chinese, Science and Maths, cuz I usually do in exams. LOL.
BUT I GOT B. I thought my eyes were like playing tricks with me. :DD
My Eng and BM got A. My mom said, "As long as you're happy. And your BM gets A."
Yep. It would be embarrassing to get B for my BM.
I AM MALAY, FOR GOD'S SAKE.
And PMR'S TOMORROW. FREAKING OUT INSIDE.

Ahah! xD
Been sort of flirting with a dude an hour ago.
Now he's eating dinner.
LOL. First time ever.
HELP, GOD!
I dunno whether he knows that I'm flirting... Hmmmm...... :P
I'm funny.
I wrote as my status, that I don't know who, said that they want to sms me.
He wrote back, I think it's me.
I said, "I think so too."
He replied with, "You really want me to sms you meh?"
omg. LOL.
I'm dead. smiling like looney person. :DDDDD
YAY. xD

erm.... lol.

I'm here, writing at 2.17am...
thinking and all...
I'm smiling like nuts, lol.
I played the "LIke and I'll post blah blah"... and one of my guy friend liked it first so, I just did it.
I ticked "text me."
He said "how to text u."
I said, "Just text... ;D"
He didn't have my number, he said... with a ;P
And I was like, "You serious want my number?"
"Serious lar."
And I gave him my number and asked him to text lots.
And Im like smiling like hell. He made me so happy after the mental breakdown. :)
And I feel like I was kinda flirting with him. ><
I didn't know what I was doing.
oh god. I'm stupid.

SO FUDGING ROMANTIC FOR WHAT O?
I doubt he could sense that I was flirting. LOL.
Whatever lar. He's younger than me. AND SERIOUSLY, HIM?
NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO.
Sure we get along and all, but seriously? NOPE.

*Torn*

Seeing people getting compliments,
Made me think of me.
Myself.
Made me feel like if I’m not here,
It won’t make any difference.
IN fact,
It will be better with one less ugly girl on the face of the earth.

I’m just an ugly girl with big impossible dreams.
FACT THE EFFIN FACT, TZARINA!
YOU ARE NOT GONNA BE A SINGER.
YOU ARE NOT GONNA MARRY JUSTIN.
YOU ARE NOT GONNA MARRY AT ALL.
YOU ARE NOT GONNA BE A MODEL.
YOU ARE NOT EVEN SMART.
YOU ARE NOTHING.
YOU ARE USELESS,
AND NO ONE’S GONNA MISS YOU IF YOU’RE GONE.
That’s all I feel right now.
Nothing good in my heart now.
Goodnight.

**Forever Young**

~Let us die young or let us live

forever~

If we could only have this life for one more day,

If we could only turn back time.

3 weeks til school time and 1 more week to PMR and JUEC results,

Kinda freaked out.

I mean,

I may never be in the same class with my family,

my own.

The main thing I didn't regret doing is most probably,

dropping my average marks.

Yeah, I guess that's true.

I really thought in my mind,

that this year would suck,

And I would die in Jr3B.

But people I met there,

showed me that I'm not

alone.

Life's too short to regret anything.

And I don't regret meeting any of you guys.

You guys most probably have seen me in my weakest time.

I appreciate that.

I really do.

Thinking of how I stayed away from my

primary classmates.

They weren't for me.

I don't belong there.

I belong with you guys.

"The test of true friends is to see who stays and leaves when you're down."

And you guys stayed.

Well, maybe this holiday,

we're too far apart,

and some people don't answer their phone.

==

That we may drifted a bit.

But we surely can pick up our relationship when school opens.

EVERYBODY!

SERIOUSLY PRAY FOR OUR CLASS TO BE THE SAME!!

And I'm finally over him. :)

I feel so proud of myself.

Maybe I don't love him anymore,

but I still think abouthim,

but in a friend way.

And special shoutout to ZiEe,

for finally admitting me as your sister.

And proving to me,

that guys can be as sweet as you,

and musical. :)

I love you, Bro~

I don't cry about it anymore.

But,

I still want a boyfriend.

Justin freaking Bieber has a freaking girlfriend who he freaking loves,

and Im sitting here,

"OMG. WHYYYYYYYYYY????"

and the British boys kinda proves that

there are boys like me,

who can be silly and sweet in public. :)

They are absolute angels with angelic voices. :)

But unfortunately, they're over 17 and all taken.. T_T

And they make me want to have a boyfriend like them.

GOD.

So, I'm going out with Reika this Wednesday,

just hanging out.

If no one else comes,

it'll be both of us only.

Hope some guys hit on me.

LOL.

And with my new glasses,

I feel like Superwoman. :)

and I feel that I look prettier. :D

Love you, babes.

Thank you for the splendid year.

And for helping me through this bump in the road.

Need any help, I'll call Superwoman to help you guys, kays? :)

Adele - Turning Tables (Live at Largo)

Turning Tables

Next time I'll be braver,

I'll be my own savior.

Feel extremely lonely.

No matter who I text,

90% of the time they won't reply.

But I'm not gonna whine about that,

right?

IM SO HAPPY.

IM SMILING LIKE NEVER BEFORE.

I HAVE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME.

WEEEEEEE...

LET'S PARTY.

Total Eclipse Of The Heart

Once upon a time I was fallin in love

Now I'm only fallin apart

Yesterday, I went to my mom's reunion dinner.

It was kinda boring at first and the food's not that great,

except for the fish.

Then, one of Malaysia's greatest rocker came and performed.

I sang along to the songs.

His voice was awesome.

Then, I forgotten what song,

but he said,

"Love requires sacrifice."

Then, Mom told me,

"If you're in love, you tell me, cz you'll get heartbroken."

And that made me think of him until the moment I fell asleep at home.

That moment when Mom said that,

I cried for awhile.

I thank the place for being dark.

I think I'm in love cz,

when I think back,

I think it's love at first sight.

When I saw him on the first day of school,

I felt different.

The feeling was unknown so,

I just ignored it.

And memories started flooding my mind.

The day when we both made each other laugh.

How much effort to make you notice me sometimes.

The day when I catwalked in front of you.

I still couldn't believe it happened.

I gotta thank my husband for this.

Sze Mun knows about me and him.

After a week of knowing, she's still shocked.

She kept asking why I love him.

I don't know.

Anyway,

she asked me whether wanna join her to Sunway.

"After he comes back, of course."

And I said, "Sunway far, no transport."

I don't know lar.

.I love him.