Tomato thingy is giving me a heart attack.

Today, I was trying real hard to communicate with him.

It ended with him ignoring me when I asked him something.

That time, I was so hurt and I couldn't care about anything anymore.

I was like, "I'm not important. It's ok. Go layan Cat."

I swear I wanted to cry but no tears came.

And then somehow, I got hyper because he actually was talking about the 'girl' which is me and that means he still remembers.

And SZ is my spy on their group.

But I specifically told him not to say or ask anything so.....

I don't know what to do now.

Tomorrow?

Let's see what happens.

Justin, Justin, Justin...

I barely have time to go online for him anymore.

Just now, he posted,

I KNOW ONE DAY YOU’LL NO LONGER BE THERE FOR ME. I KNOW YOU’LL HAVE TO FACE YOUR OWN LIFE… U WILL BECOME MOTHER TO YOUR CHILD AND A WIFE TO YOUR HUSBAND. AND I WANT TO THANK U FOR BEING PART OF MY LIFE.I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU ALL, MY BELIEBERS.

I was so sad.

I mean a lot of 'beliebers' are starting to turn their back against him and they are all taking us with them. Justin is sad. and upset.

hey, you there. i will never forget you. If i do, then I’m ungrateful. I cannot forget the person who made me who I am today and made me discover what I wanna be and what I can do. Even if i have a husband and children, I would tell them that I wouldn’t be here without you. You’re the greatest thing that happen in my life currently.

You’re the only guy in the world that makes me happy. I know there’s ‘beliebers’ who turn their back against you. I understand. It makes you feel lost for awhile. My life was upside down until you came. No words can describe my feelings for you. No tears can measure how much I love and care for you. I would never forget you. Loving you is probably the best thing I ever did. And I still will. Forever, remember? We’ll go through this together, hand in hand, even though you’re thousand miles away. Seeing you like this breaks my heart and I wish I could give you a big long hug. That’s all I wanna do right now. I love you, Justin Drew Mallette Bieber.

I wrote that to him. Both of it. How I wish I know him. He should have a big hug and not a belieber hug but a friend hug. I love him so much and I can't imagine life without him.

~azunyannyui