:: See No More ::

I wrote to him.

Finally.

And as I thought,

I have no such luck.

He's smart for making a joke before sayin ' we shud js be frens'

While I was reading that msg,

I was laughing.

Good move.

But after an hour,

that joke ain't even funny anymore.

Reality hits me.

Becca said we can joke around again and be friends.

The fact is,

I don't want to be JUST FRIENDS.

But I really don't wanna make him upset.

Most probably,

I'll fake that I accepted what he said.

Then,

what was all the signs for?

Was it to lead me on?

I don't wanna think he's that kind who likes breaking a girl's heart.

All the signs.

I remember all of it.

I still love him with all my heart,

and I just don't wanna think that he thinks I deserve some other guy,

cz there's a reason i pick him.

His joke in the message was a cushion to protect me from falling too hard.

A joke about ZiEe being gay.

It's not funny anymore.

I love you.